Meghan Markle makes surprise motherhood admission and says 'it's not what I envisioned'

Meghan about her life as a mum and admitted that motherhood is not how she "envisioned it". The Duchess of Sussex quit being a senior working royal for a new life in the US when her was 10 months old in 2020 amid the turmoil of Megxit.

She later gave birth to daughter in 2021, just weeks after giving her controversial interview to Oprah Winfrey. In the latest episode of her podcast, Confessions of a Female Founder, Meghan told founder of sustainable hair and beauty brand Kitsch, Cassandra Thurswell, that she had a "lot of external things happening" during both pregnancies and when her children were newborns

And while pregnant, she had planned to give speeches "with a baby on my hip". But Meghan added: "I will say, for myself – especially when they are baby babies and, yes, the crying, before I was mum, I’ve always wanted to be a mum. I was like, ‘Oh gosh, I’m going to give a speech with a baby on my hip’.

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"I had a whole vision – and then you fast forward… granted, I had a lot of external things happening by the time I had both pregnancies and both babies. But it was not the way I envisioned it."

The closest Meghan came to delivering a speech with one of her children in her arms was taking then five-month-old baby Archie on an official tour to South Africa in 2019, when she held him as he met Archbishop Desmond Tutu in front of the cameras.

The trip schedule was planned around Archie’s feeding times, with the duchess saying at the time: "We’re doing well. I think the schedule – they have been very kind to me, because everything is based around Archie’s feed times. So it’s a full plate, but we’re making it work. It’s worth it."

But behind the scenes, Meghan and Harry were struggling with their life as part of the amid fall-outs with the Windsors and intense media scrutiny. In the latest episode of her podcast series, Meghan, who this year launched her As Ever brand and lifestyle series, said: "It’s so important my kids see me as a working mom."

She previously said, during an appearance on The Jamie Kern Lima Show, that juggling work can be "incredibly overwhelming", and revealed she also has an 'amazing' nanny who has been with the family for five years. Meanwhile, Thurswell referred to Meghan as “ ”, but the duchess did not correct her despite calling out actress Mindy Kaling during her Netflix series when she used her previous surname.

Thurswell said: "I love that you call me Cassie … There’s such a small handful of people that call me Cassie, and it’s like my immediate family and Meghan Markle." Meghan laughed and replied: "It’s like Meg or M. It’s the same thing. It’s how we met all those years ago."

Meghan revealed she met Thurswell in 2009 through the businesswoman’s cousin, who is a friend of the duchess. Meghan was auditioning for acting parts, and Thurswell ended up helping her by styling her outfits, including the shoes she wore to her final audition for the legal drama Suits.

Meanwhile, the duchess also compared to running a business, saying some seasons are for 'blooming' and others for "tending to the soil".

The episode was released just a day after known gardening enthusiasts the King and Queen visited the Chelsea Flower Show, meeting former footballer and seeing a rose named in Charles’s honour.

The duchess said: “OK, so I think you guys know, I really like being in the garden, and running a business, funnily enough, it’s a lot like gardening. Some seasons are for blooming, others are for planting seeds, but most of the work, especially early on, it’s tending to the soil. It’s the foundation. It’s what everything is going to grow out of."

Meghan often posts footage of herself walking through her garden in Montecito, California, collecting produce or arranging flowers. She added: “You’ve got to make sure the roots are strong enough to carry what’s coming next, and this is especially true when you’re bootstrapping a business, running a business, independent of any investors, private equity… you are doing it on your own.

“You have to be so intentional and careful with all of your choices, and you can’t expect a harvest to happen overnight,” she said. The duchess added: “Eventually, with a strong vision and all of that care on the details, oh, that garden will grow.”